i need to start a garden

I think deeply about a lot of shit everyday. These thoughts tend to go nowhere, except my faulty memory bank, only to disappear with time.

There are times they persevere, get reactivated and linger. I rework them, trace their connections and contours. These thoughts become my academic publications or professional blogs, but they take shape across months or years.

I need a more immediate outlet to scatter unfinished/raw thoughts (seeds) that can (maybe, eventually) grow precisely because they've been planted somewhere nurtured, returnable, & semi-public. One of my favorite parts of 10+-years-ago twitter was that I felt confident to think publicly alongside my academic network, a mental scratchpad with helpful collective input. That environment is long gone, but I want this to be my little personal-yet-still-public thought garden; a living archive.

I wanna unlearn the pressure to polish
I wanna dive back into experimentation, practice "fuck it"
Gotta keep this mind oiled, sharp, fresh, creative, & ready + able to witness